What I am

by Valk 12:14 PM 0 comments

Second part of my post. This may seem to sound a bit different that what I have written before.

Well, apparently there are things about me that are unacceptable.

Which I really don't mind to be told, because it is better if I know what is acceptable and what is not. Then I can adjust myself to you.

But to be told that there's something that I myself do not realise about myself that is unacceptable, that shocks me, truly. 

I guess that did make me angry. I did feel that it wasn't fair that I was facing an angry lover because of something even I do not realise. But heck, I'd rather lose an argument than to lose you.

Here's a short one.

I'm doing my best,

To be the best,

For your heart to rest,

On my own crest.

To slowly change,

To be in your range,

I hope you see,

What I'm trying to be.

All I ask is patience,

And your smiling presence,

For me to achieve balance,

And exercise utter prudence.

-Valk-

...I know I'm not perfect. But let me show you my potential.

I hope you understand Lady Ashe, how much I'm slowly changing myself to be better.

I know I have a lot of bad habits - Whether I realise it or not.

I just wish nothing more than your patience. I'm doing the best I can.

I just wish that you'll smile through this with me. Give me support in my change. I work better that way. Reprimanding brings me down - Sometimes discouraging.

I know I can do it.

And I know that I love you like hell.

I wish not to be discouraged.

Smile with me, milady.

Coldness will not carry me forward.

Don't get me wrong.

I'm not blaming.

Nor am I flaming.

I am just stating...

That I really need you to support me through and have patience. That would matter to me more than the world.

I love you.

Safe journeys.

You and me.

Lady Ashe.